Time is Dragging

29 Weeks, 6 days

I am distracted. I have 6 weeks left until I go on maternity leave and I am having a hard time focusing on work. It seems that most of the teachers I work with are also having a hard time focusing. Governor Christie has cut our budget by 7 million or so for Parsippany and the district will have to make cuts to fill the gap. It has become such a distraction here that there are few conversations about anything else. Either some teachers will be out of a job or the lot of us will have to take a pay freeze. I am annoyed and disgusted by the whole thing and I just want to focus on myself. I have become completely self-absorbed now.

There are only 10 weeks left until my due date. I am uncomfortable most of the time now, but at least the sciatic pain has been reduced away to almost nothing. My feet and ankles swell and then they don't. I grunt or moan every time I stand up, sit down or try to roll over in bed. My feet are starting to seem very far away and I have decided to get a pedicure during spring break. I still have toenail polish from September on my big toes. Typing has become a challege, because my fingers have forgotten where the keys are. My spelling has gotten even worse; I appreciate spell check all the more now. My mind wanders constantly and I waddle when I walk. And I still have 10 weeks left!

Piper is finding interesting ways to stretch inside me. She seems to curl up in a ball and then push out in all directions. A large bump slowly forms, making my belly rather lopsided. I have read that she may eventually start pushing her feet out and they could be distinguishable as feet. It's a curious process, being pregnant.

I think about how life will change when she is born. I know it will change, but I don't really know how. I am already distracted at work and she is being carted around with me. How will I focus in September when I have to leave her at home with Griffin and my father-in-law manny, Jan? I will be filled with thoughts of two men and a baby.

I am so distracted that I can't even focus enough to write. My mind wanders to the future. Everyone tells me it will be here before I know it, but to me it has been dragging on for what feels like forever. We have been trying to do the whole baby thing for nearly 3 years, so what's 10 more weeks? And really, what's 6 more weeks at work? There is spring break, weekends, Fridays barely count . . . but it is just dragging right now. I need a good distraction.